I think I’ll drive home now.

Guess I’ll think the next day away

And you?

 

You fill up my nights now

A dream and I wake with thoughts of you

Carry through.

Carry on.

 

Don’t let it rest on my face.

Don’t let the jumps in my heart shake you too.

Stand me still.

Carry through, moving on, and I’m gone.

 

Before the pain even knows it’s on the way. 

Let me be. Let me go. Let me out. I can’t be what you want.

I can’t talk. I can’t shout.

Let me out. 

 

I don’t know how to do another day. 

I don’t know how to breathe and speak and stay.

And I’m gone. 

I know gone.

 

 

I’m taking the long way.

Guess I’ll sing my mistakes away

From you? 

 

In control of this wheel

I can feel how I want.

I can shout to myself.

I am free to feel free.

 

And you grin, and the small of your back 

And the touch of of your face and regret swirling pain. 

Turn away.

 

I don’t know how to do,

Are you ok?

I don’t know how pull just push away.

But my eyes

 

I think they give me away.

And I don’t know how to look okay.

 

Don’t know how to shrug and stay where we are.

Nonchalance is a fake.

That you started and I take,

But I can’t be what you want. I can’t be nonchalant in my heart.

 

 

I think I’ll drive home now.

In hopes that you will just watch me leave.

In hopes that leaving goes seamlessly

 

No regrets, no mistakes, no return.

I’ll think of you, think of me.

But I can’t be what your want

I can’t talk, I can’t shout,

All that I can do is run away. Just leave before I break.

 

Before the pain even starts.

I’m on my way.

Before the pain even starts 

I’ve a planed escape.

 

With your shrugs and your casual embrace

And you are sizing me up. 

And your reading my face and I’m gone.

Read away.

 

I don’t know how to do a another day

And I can’t make my eyes cooperate.

I don’t know how to feel without my gaze

Projecting my heart. I’m not okay.

Carry on.

Carry on

Nonchalance 

Carry on

Carry on. 

I’m taken the long way.

Before the pain even starts I’m gone

Nonchalance

Nonchalance

Carry on.

I’m gone.